What I learned at 40 years old....well there are many things.
First of all , as you get older you realize you really don't give a dam what people think. (Well I don't).
People will judge you whether your doing good or bad...yup they will.
In the long run as long as you know in yourself you did the right thing, it makes no difference what people think. I got to tell you its nice to have that pressure off your shoulders.....wouldn't you agree?
Another thing I have realizedI have accepted myself for who I am, what I believe, what I stand for and what I won't stand for. It is a beautiful thing to accept your good and your bad. Yes you can improve yourself daily but you are who you are. I am talking physically, emotionally, socially and mentally. As a trainer I believe your outward appearence is a direct relation to how you are feeling inside....I try every day to keep my body as a temple. Yes, there is more to exercise and nutrition, you better believe there is..realationships with family, friends or even complete strangers that can make a difference in your life.
I guess what I am trying to say is we all have our stuff, we all have our qwerky ways but at the end of the day if there is alot of good and a tiny bit of bad, we are doing ok.
Accept yourself, you deserve it.